Just another day

Just another day in this hell I call my life. It seems that no matter what I do, I still management to piss someone off in my family. You damn if you do and damn if you don't. What is one to do?

Over the past years my life as it is has taken many turns some for the better and some for the worst. Then there those moments that I just can't explain nor do I understand. The question has been asked many times before, if you had a chance to relive you life with all that you know now would? Many have said yes and many have said no, that they were happy with their lives. I said this that they are lying. In everyone's life there are moments that you wish you could change. Yes it true that if you were able to change those events, would it make you life better or worst. How does anyone know what would happen if you could go back and change a painful point in your life.

My life is like a twisted deranged roller coaster that should be condemned. Yes, condemn for sure. In my view my life isn't much worth living. There has been way too much death and lies and sickness in it. All member of my immediate family is dead; I have one aunt and one uncle which I'm not close to at all. My aunt is from my father side, and my uncle is from my mother side. I have few cousins which we don't communicate with all. Well there time that we do.

My only living family members are my sister and her two kids and my son. Which I don't get to see at all thanks the so-called legal system of the Commonwealth of ??

However thing really hit the fan this week, after a stupid argument where things that were said that you wish wasn't after the fact. So my sister and I are in this stand off to see who will be the first to speak to whom. We are now in day four; things are just getting more stupid by the minute.